Thoughts on Jessica Lea Mayfield: Tell Me
When I told some friends that I had fallen in love with Jessica Lea Mayfield’s latest work Tell Me, my announcement was met with concerned eyes. What’s wrong? Are you depressed? Are you feeling alright?—they asked.
The material from which she draws is raw, honest and dark. She writes as the scariest type of depressive: one who is bright enough to see clearly the ways in which she self-destructs and acts anyway. Mayfield’s lackadaisical singing style can come off as emotionless, but only if she is explored solely from the surface.
The beauty in Jessica Lea Mayfield’s style lies in its subtlety. The shifts in tone, both sonically and emotionally, are so slight and delicate. A minor inflection here, an off-color joke there. A barely-audible chuckle at the end of a lyric.
I’ll do anything
I’m surprised that I’m not dead yet
Or maybe, I’m disappointed
But we won’t get into that
Give me your hand, grown man
I’ll breathe some life into you
Oh, there’s not much I wouldn’t let
You whisper in my ear
If nothing else, Mayfield is an encouraging lesson in resilience. Yes, she sings of being heartbroken, fucked up and worse. But she continues to toss herself back into the fray because life is worth living. Life without these regrets and scars would be meaningless. Songs too, for that matter.
Another thought worth considering is the fact that Mayfield is often the one doing the hurting and heartbreaking in these songs. Loving and leaving the sorry fools that never had a chance in the first place.
“Nervous Lonely Night”
I didn’t mean to fuel the fire
Now I’m alone watching flames go higher
Drunk, on thoughts of you
Red wine and tequila too
Perhaps it’s disconcerting to hear a petite, fragile blonde chick so coldly dismissing old lovers. The humanity comes from the fact that she realizes the pain that she’s caused and continues to cause. She just can’t change her behavior, it’s ingrained within her. Like it or not, this is something a lot of us can relate to.
I know I left you alone in New Orleans
You overheard us doing blow in the bathroom
I was kissin’, holdin’ hands
With some other girl’s grown man
You should run far from the wrong I’m doing
I will admit that I am innately drawn to almost anything Dan Auerbach digs his grubby paws into. He serves as the producer on Tell Me for his fellow Ohio native. The album was released by The Black Keys label Nonesuch Records. Auerbach does a lovely job of allowing her songwriting to remain the driving force while adding textures and sounds that give the album a depth that it would otherwise lack.
Watch Jessica Lea Mayfield perform “Our Hearts Are Wrong” on David Letterman
Written by Rob Peoni